Monday, December 21, 2009

Is it time yet.....

Usually the few days leading up to Christmas ALWAYS take sooooooo long. The anticipation of whats going to be under the tree (yes, I still get excited!) The joy and happiness I get from watching my boys faces light up as they see what Santa brought! This year is no exception. This week is taking f o r e v e r. Its only Monday! I can't wait to get my present this year. I must have been a very good girl because I get my present on Christmas Eve! In 2 3/4 long days (brad says 3 days but 2 3/4 sound better to me!) Brad will be up here. I cannot wait to see him! It has only been 2 weeks since I left Arizona, but man! it feels like soooo much longer.
I can't wait to see him, kiss him, hug him, and look into his eyes. So, Brad when you read this try to figure out a way to speed time up! See you soon!

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

The whole truth and nothing but the truth....

One thing that Brad and I promised each other is that we would always be completely honest with each other about everything. Sometimes it has been hard to hear, and accept some of the things we have talked about. Sometimes it has made us both very happy and overjoyed about some of the things we have talked about. The most important thing is that we are gaining that complete trust in each other. I know that he will always be honest with me, and tell me everything. From what he might be thinking and feeling to what he is doing. And I know that he knows I will be the same way. With this kind of honesty we are setting up our relationship to be one that will last. To be one that we know we can always turn to the other for advice and comfort. It has been so comforting for me to know that I can tell him anything and everything. To know that he is there for me. To know that he loves me. I am so grateful for that and for him. He has been a source of wisdom and comfort. He reminds me to lean on the Savior more. He reminds me that I am not alone. He reminds me that I am loved.
I feel like I have known him for such a long time. I love the comfort I feel with him. I thank Heavenly Father everyday for bringing him into my life. I just hope he knows how grateful I am to have him in my life. I love him more and more everyday. I can't wait to see him in 9 days. To look at him to pray with him to read our scriptures together to kiss him to hold his hand to touch him to experience the holidays with him. I am grateful that he is becoming my best friend.

Thursday, December 10, 2009

Our First Kiss

How could i have forgotten to talk about "the kiss", i tell ya living here in the dirt a.k.a. arizona just does wonders to the brain sometimes!!!
So robin and i had talked before she even came down about not kissing at all on this trip. We agreed that we should strive to keep this trip about getting to know and grow with one another. When i picked her up at the airport and saw her there i so wanted to just kiss her sweet full lips right then and there, but i gave a nice kiss on the cheek instead. I couldnt hold out any longer, every time i looked at her beautiful face and sweet smile i just wanted to lay a fat one on her lips. I'd kiss her cheeks, neck, forehead and nose even, and i remember her stating at one point that"you can kiss everything except my lips?" LoL yea babe for now thats how its going to be. WELL.........that all changed sunday morning. I was finishing up getting ready for church and i stopped and looked at her then embrassed her for a nice hug, our eyes met and i kissed her on the cheek than went in for the kill. I was like a kamakazi pilot, BBBOOONNNZZZAAAAIIIIII!!!! I couldnt wait any longer i had held out for a day and a half and it was wonderful. That was such a awesome way to start my sabbath, to be in the arms of the woman i had fallen for right before heading to praised our Beloved Savior.
i couldnt get enough kisses in before she left, i wish she could have just stayed. i miss my pacific northwesterner so much, i think, smile, pray and long for her. The great news is that I AM going up to visit her and da boys and her family for 9 days starting christmas eve. What an exciting time in my life it is right now with robin by my side and i cant wait to see what the future holds for robin and i.

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

ohhh the pictures....

Here are a few pictures form our first weekend together. It was so nice to be able to walk around Temple grounds together and experience the peacefulness of it. There is something different about the way I feel about him that makes me excited. I can't wait to see him again and continue to get to know him. I feel so blessed to have him in my life, and I can not wait to see where this goes.

I want to thank his family for being so kind to me. i loved getting to know them, and playing with their kids. Watching Brad with his nieces and nephews made me fall even harder for him. The way he plays with them and talks about them you can tell that they are his life. He would do anything for any of them. I know that when he has his own kids he will be an amazing father.

Well, now there are only 2 weeks till Christmas!! I can't believe it is almost here! It looks like Brad will be coming up to spend it with us. it will be fun to have him here, and to meet all my family. I can't wait to see how he interacts with the boys. He is an amazing Uncle and I know that the boys will like him. I just hope there is lots of snow for some good snowball fights!

Sunday, December 6, 2009

Our first photo taken together on dec.4th 2009. I had driven to the airport that morning to pick her up, met her in the baggage claim, carousel 5. At first i didn't see her, but there she was standing behind one of the big pillars. I was nervous as heck, but thought she was even more beautiful in person than the daily photos we swapped. I couldn't believe she was here, we had talked about this for a few weeks now and the moment was finally here and i was delighted very much to finally look upon her. After grabbing her luggage we decided to go and get some hot chocolate at the Starbucks in the Barnes and nobles at the Tempe marketplace. She grabbed a mint hot chocolate and i a African shakazooloo something or other that wasn't pleasant to the taste buds! we sat and conversed for about an hour and just talked and laughed. I couldn't help stop looking at her, she has a wonderful smile and gorgeous eyes that i just couldn't help noticing. Then we were off to Target, she insisted that i get a Christmas tree this year along with lights, ornaments and oh so wonderful garland.(which our 2 strands look so wonderful i might add) we spent a good amount of time just walking around holding hands and just enjoying one another company, the goods were bought and we ten left for my home to lounge for a bit. The plan for the night was cafe rio, pick out a Christmas tree and go to the temple to look at the Christmas lights. cafe rio tasted so goooood, the tree was bought and off to the temple we went. What a marvelous time we had at the temple, enjoying all the beautiful lights, stop to look at the temple and all of its beauty and talking about our spiritual desires. We spent a good hour of more walking laps around the grounds, just holding hands and talking to one another. We headed back to the house to put up the tree and lights together. I couldn't have asked for a better first date.

Saturday, slept in till roughly 11am, that was a first for her in a very long time, me on the other hand.....i love sleeping in! i was offered to do a side job at 130, so we hurried and got dressed and a bite to eat. we then spent more time waiting for the home owner to get to his house than it did for me to install. i felt awkward having robin with me, not that i didn't want her there i just didn't want to waste her vacation time with me installing. It all worked out and we then had my brothers open house to get to. This was a tad nerve racking for me. Shes been here one day and she was about the meet the familia for the first time. It was cool to see my family to accept her in and make her feel comfortable, all the while long i worried that they would do nothing but embarrass me. WE PREVAILED!!! We then hit up the local Kohl's because she had some kohl's dollar's to use up before the following day. She ended up buying me this grey argyle sweater, thank you i really like it. That night we decided on dinner and the movie 2012. Dinner at chili's which is always tasty and had a wonderful conversation about our feelings for one another and about future possibilities. Then it was time to watch a realistic movie about whats going to happen in 2012, and all i can say is, thank goodness for Hollywood! you bubbling idiots!!!! only California is going to break off of the continent. We both enjoyed the movie but weren't totally stoked to have seen it, anyways off to the pad to go ni night........sweet dreams robin.
Sunday morning, fast and testimony meeting, first time ever bringing a young lady to my ward, let the games begin LoL. It was nice to have her by my side, she looked very beautiful in a black top and skirt with a grey sweater over that. As for me, i was sporting a nice pair of black trousers, white shirt and gold tie with the new grey sweater that was boughten for me the day before. We sat and strived to sing together and enjoyed being close to one another in the lords house, ohh yea, there was much holding of the hands the entire time, plus she wrote on my back with her finger"i am falling for you".[sidebar] I can honestly say that from just about the very beginning, robin and i have had a awesome time getting to know one another. I have never been more honest with anyone in my life, i have divulged everything to her and vice versa. Robin is an amazing woman and damn fine too. I have over 35 photos that i look at on a daily basis and find her to be very beautiful and wonderful to look at. And when i saw her there at the airport she was more beautiful than the photos. I love everything about her. We have laughed together, cried together, read scriptures and prayed together, we talk and texted for hours and i find myself missing her and wanting to know more and more about her when i am not in contact with her. Our friendship came when i least expected it but very well needed it. My life has not been the same since she has entered into it! I thank My Heavenly Father and Savior for blessing me with a wonderful friend. [ok im back] Sunday school went was good though i struggled to stay awake, and we separated for our last hour, and thank you Liesl Webb for taking her under your wing, you and your husband are the bomb! Headed home for a nap before going over to moms for dinner with the family again. It was fun to play with my nephews and nieces and to watch robin interact with all of them, they enjoyed her there. After dinner we came back to the house and started watching a movie till we got tired and then crashed.
Monday morning was another late start, i believe robin is starting to enjoy those. LoL we just hung out at the house and chatted for a few hours before getting a quick bowl of cereal and getting ready for lunch with the Bishop family. We were to meet them at P.F.Changs and it had been sometime since i had eaten at one so i was looking for ward to it, but nervous to meet her friends. Lunch was good and the company were even better, such a wonderful and delight some family. Their youngest daughter is such a cutie. Tonight was the night for robin to meet the entire family. See each year we have a family Christmas dinner and it consists of.....well.....basically the whole enchilada. And still, even at the age of 35, i was put at the kiddie table! but i did draw some sweet pictures with the crayons they had there. I introduced to her to some of my family members and there were some who came up and introduced themselves to her. They loved her, exact words from one person is "shes a keeper", and that she is. Neither one of us at much at the dinner so we were hungry afterwards so off to In n Out it was and brought it back to the house to grub on while watching kung fu panda which robin hadn't seen yet, such a hilarious movie in my opinion.
Tuesday morning rolls around and neither one of us got up till 10:30, yet we laid in bed for the next 3 and a half hours just talking, it was so cool. We just do that though, we have 2 or more hour conversations on the phone frequently, plus lengthy conversations since shes been in town. 2 o clock rolls around and we figure we better get out of bed and do the running around we need to do. i couldn't believe it, this was her last day here, it had finally come and i was saddened at the thought of not being able to see her first thing in the morning and to smile as i look at her beautiful face. All i could do was enjoy the last hours we had together before she headed home. Varies errands were ran and then we went over to the temple to walk around for a bit and take photos. I loved being there with her on those sacred grounds. We had some time to kill before heading to the airport so we just came back to the house and chilled. We held each other and looked into one anothers eyes and continued to talk about the gospel and what we desired spiritually and for the future and then she said "I'm going to miss you" and it took a few seconds but i just started crying and told her that i was going to miss her as well. And after that point i was an emotional wreck,LoL Every night we read scriptures and knelt together in prayer, every single night and i loved that. As we were standing in the dining room embarrassing one another we talked about our feelings for one another. And during that time i said a prayer asking that i might fully understand the feelings i had for robin and to be able to communicate them to her when the time is right. Well that time was shorter than i had thought, i mentioned how i loved being with her and loved spending these last 5 days together. And then she said the words "i love you" and it pierced my heart, and i felt this warm feeling come over me and i reply those same exact words to her "i love you". It was clear to me at that very moment, what our future held for one another. I held her and embraced her tightly with an overwhelming feeling inside me. We went and knelt for one last prayer together and robin wanted me to say it. I didn't any further than Our Beloved when i just started crying again, i tried to compose myself but i couldn't hold it back. I found someone that i cherish and deeply love and i was very grateful to My Heavenly Father for bringing us together and He needed to be thanked, i cried because i was going to miss her and desired to be with her everyday, i cried because i had finally let someone into my heart and they took it and embarrassed it with all their soul. We arrived at the airport a tad early so we found an area to sit and just held and kissed one another. Then it was time for her to go through security, i found myself not wanting to let her go and trying to get as many small kisses in as i could before she really had to go. We said our goodbyes and i love yous and she started walking away from me, i followed her as she rounded the corner and watched her through the glass and i just started crying again, she'd turn around and wave and id wave back with tearing flowing down my cheeks. Then she got to the security lanes and i prayed that if someone up in heaven was listening or watching that they'd have her turn around more last time before finally going through AND SHE DID, and i just caved in. The woman i love, the woman i just spend 5 wonderful days growing closer to than anyone else was leaving me and it sucked BUTT!! She walked through security and i walked back to where i could see her walking down the aisle to her gate till i couldn't see her any longer. I cried for a few moments as i walked back to my truck. We were able to talk once more before when she was on the plane before she took off and i just couldn't help but start to tear up again. As i sit her and type this all out my heart aches to be away from her, i miss her and love that beautiful young woman.

[side blog] Robin means the world to me, our friendship has grown so much in the few weeks we have known each other, the feelings we have had for one another have blossomed into a wonderful relationship that i cherish so very much. I look at robin at want to be with her for forever, sealed for all time and eternity. I have been blessed with such a magnificent woman, she is caring, loving, honest, loyal, selfless,spiritual, beautiful and the list goes on. Both of us have known for awhile now that there was something special between us, we just had that peaceful thought about one another. Ive have never had so much in common with someone before, we find ourselves saying just how weird things are working out between us. Weird probably isn't the proper word, but it has been weird. The trials i was going through came to a boiling point just a few days into talking with robin on the phone and after that POOF it all slipped away. She has been a blessing in my life since then, a helpmate if i may say. I have been able to call her when i was feeling horrible and at the end of our conversation i was feeling much better and that had happened on 3 separate occasions. She is my support and i love how i know i can go to her with anything and we can talk about it and give counsel to one another. I cant wait to experience life with her, raise our children in the gospel together, grow old with one another and cherish each other everyday.


1.she lives in spokane area, ive had a strong desire to move up to the same area
2.Birthday July 16, January 16th
3.Waffles over pancakes
4.Pulpy OJ
5.First name Bradley, mom's maiden name Bradley
6.Ask what song he was singing in Sunday School, and I knew (Families can be together forever)
7.Age 4 when he remembered 1st negative experience, Landon's had his first negative experience
8.Favorite colors blue
9.Favorite music Hip Hop/Alternative, Hip Hop and R&B
10.Dress Preppy
11.Divorced 3 years, separated 2 year and divorced for 1 year, totaling 3 years
12.Struggled in life with the same things
13.Self Conscious of looks
14.Desires Temple Marriage
15.Desires 4-6 kids, has 3 boys and wants more
16.Strong sexual desires
17.Attracted to women with large breasts, i have large breasts
18.He is followed by hummingbirds in nature, first name is a bird, perhaps to follow the path with me
19.Opposite similarity he had a difficulty childhood, had a loving childhood
20.Took out Endowments at the LA Temple, sealed to family at LA Temple
21.Favorite food Mexican
22.both have 2 sisters
23.From Arizona, had family who lived here
24.Grew up in California
25.Reality check August 25th, bad time end of August
26.Favorite number 23
27.both hate small dogs
28.both our older sisters have the same middle name, as well as our younger sisters.
29.we both played volleyball in high school, i played for fun, she played on the team
30.we both hate the sound of our own voices
31.and at the times of the blog entry, 12/6/09, we both have a cold!
32.we both owned a black lab during in our prior marriages
33.both have bad vision
34.i have a lazy right eye, her oldest son dallan does as well
35.(no disrespect to other Prophet's) our favorite is Pres. Hinckley
36. both the 2nd born
37. favorite holiday, christmas
38. both younger sisters are inactive
39, both have thin hair
40. favorite Christmas song Little Drummer Boy

In the beginning.....

This blog is the story about how R&B met, and the journey that they are taking together. It all started on LDS Planet (Oct '09). A few emails were sent, and then the phone calls started. From the beginning there was a connection, and a want to know more about each other. Over the next month hours were spent on the phone talking and texting. With all the talking we began to see all the similarities that were between us. Too many that it can't be ignored. We can't wait to keep adding to the list. We are so grateful to have each other in our lives, and can't wait to see where it goes.....